Wednesday, April 25, 2007

How abt my teeth :D

these were my one time fav lines which i wont be saying anymore.

This blog is closed now.


"One can resist the invasion of an army but one cannot resist the
invasion of ideas." - Victor Hugo

I am poor again

I lost my dreams, my life. I lost everything. As everyone, even i feel
i am the most unlucky.... I am a human afterall... I do n did things
purely on motivation. I have almost lost it now. Life seems soo
different now... Tasteless...


"One can resist the invasion of an army but one cannot resist the
invasion of ideas." - Victor Hugo

Thursday, April 19, 2007


Choice is a bad thing. The worst situatin is when you have to choose. Choose between things which you are not certain about. Actually, nothing is certain. Uncertainty is soo much dissolved in nature, life that its just not possible for one to say what is going to happen in near future.

One may debate on saying that I can tell you what will I do today, tomorrow etc. But if you think about it, its not. Some time back I had written about how people take decisons. Its about the current situation, the instance, which is considered and some assumptions made about the future that ok if a = b right now, it will be  = c as b is near to c and hence a = c something like that. All I say is, you have in your hand the current situation, and you make some plans depending on it, and try to maintain it, work towards to it etc. Things might change during the course of time, which is not realised easily coz you are in the phase of getting it done. Later when you look back, you can connect the dots. Thats what Steve Jobs said in one of his speech. You cannot connect the dots in future, you can only connect them by looking back. So, the overall rant is, uncertainty.

My friend played a small game with me.

Vinod: Which choclate you want? Choclate or Pista? Choose.
Me: Choclate.
Vinod: Why not Pista?
Me: Because I like choclate.
Vinod: Choose, Choclate or Pista.
Me: Choclate.
Vinod: Why not Pista?
Me: Coz its sweet, and I dont like sweet.
Vinod: Choose.
Me: Also the last time I had it, it was not soo good(Pista)
Vniod: Choose.
Me: I just dont like it! Choclate is better than Pista.
Vinod: So, its not a choice. Its what you like. huh?
Me: Umm... ya.... in some sense.
Vinod: So where is the choice?
Me: :)
Vinod: So, essentially there is no choice.
Me: aha.... (looking at him like a curious baby) then... what is it?
Vinod: The thought of having the best of the available is soo much deeply rooted in our minds that we always think of having the best of the available.
Me: aha....
Vinod: Just think, I asked you which choclate, and you replied in a wink of an eye that you want Choclate.
Me: ya...
Vinod: Later when I probed again, you started giving reasons for why you want Choclate.
Me: yes...
Vinod: So, basically the mind is soo much trained that all this reasoning happens in the background and eventually you want the best. You had the ice-cream now and you are happy. But thats not life. You wont get the best all the time. Also there is nothing as best.
Me: Ya...Everything is relative.
Me: Ok.. so there is no choice actually. There is only liking and disliking based on past knowledge.

I dont remember where the talk went further. But all I got is, that we all are selfish. Small or big, but we are. Later he said to me to release all these bonds and let your heart free and accept that things should happen naturally. I did it and I was happy. Obvios, I was happy coz things were happening naturally as I expected. But now I am not. I am not accepting things that are happening now, coz I dont expect things to happen this way. Again, I was selfish and was expecting things to happen my way.

Its difficult to practice. May be when I am 45, I may say... no... its not at all difficult ... just accept nature....coz by that time I will have lost interest in my life and may not bother....or my be not.

I forgot why I started writing this.

Ok... Fuck all the crap. I love you da...I love you too much... and I will always love you....forever and ever babe...

Sunday, March 11, 2007

QOTM - HowTo

Please follow the instructions as mentioned in my QOTD widget post.

Replace the complete script/html content with the one given below.
<script src="" type="text/javascript"></script>
<script language="javascript">
var quotesArray;

function loadQuotes(root) {
var content = root.entry.content.$t;
quotesArray = content.split('%');
setInterval("showRandomQuote()", 16000);

function showRandomQuote() {
var index = Math.floor(Math.random() * quotesArray.length);
var quote = quotesArray[index];
quote = stripHtml(quote);
document.getElementById("quotesDiv").innerHTML = quote;
dojo.lfx.html.fadeIn('quotesDiv', 2000).play();
setTimeout("dojo.lfx.html.fadeOut('quotesDiv', 2000).play()", 13000);

function stripHtml(s) {
return s.replace(/(<([^>]+)>)/ig,' ');

<div id="quotesDiv">
loading quotes...
<script language="javascript"
=";callback=loadQuotes ">
where DDDDDD is your blog id and SSSSSSS is your quotes-data post id.

Please refer my earlier post for all other details. Just now I found a bug in this one. The stripHTML function strips any HTML from the quote text and replaces with a blank space. This is not acceptable.

What I should do is, first replace all the <br> and/or <br/> tags with a blank space and all other tags with empty space. Comments please :)

"One can resist the invasion of an army but one cannot resist the invasion of ideas." - Victor Hugo

Quote of the moment

My little quote of the day widget is now changed to quote of the moment widget.

Features :

Displays new quote every 15 seconds.

Fade-in and Fade-out effect added. (Thanks to all the people involved in the dojotoolkit project.)

Quotes are loaded only once when the page is loaded. Not everytime when the quote changes.

I am still kinda testing it. AFAIK, two guys (Alian and Sanjeev) are using it.

Will update you guys tomorrow on how to get it up on your blogs. If you are too much impatient, view the source and satisfy yourself :D

Good night!

"One can resist the invasion of an army but one cannot resist the invasion of ideas." - Victor Hugo

Friday, March 09, 2007


cool. This is from my sweetheart. Thanks to hutch : )


"One can resist the invasion of an army but one cannot resist the
invasion of ideas." - Victor Hugo

Saturday, February 17, 2007

Free stuff

This year looks like I will be getting more of free stuff. Long time back i subscribed to helpOthers. They had a free service of sending you smile cards which you can just give it to anyone. After sending the request twice, i got them. Cool! a pack of some 20 cards i guess. Then i had subscribed for NetBeans for a free cd of NetBeans IDE, NetBeans Mobility pack and also includes the Sun Java Sever Platform kit, docs etc. I got the cd today. Cool! All the way from Czech Republic. I had heard some linux distribution is also freely sending out cds. Got to find out. Anybody else giving away free stuff, please dont hesitate to ping me.

I also got two tshirts from my friend.

May god be with me all the time and let the flow of free gifts keep flowing from all you generous people out there. May god bless you and prosper you and you keep gifting me. Amen!!


Saturday, February 10, 2007

"complexity" code broken(?)

From long time me and my friend used to wonder why some things are complex or appear complex to us. Its been quite a long time, may be around 12 to 18 months now. We have this thought coming up every time we talk. All of a sudden, yesterday i just started explaining pp what is this "complex" thing. One of my friend always says, "things have to happen naturally". I feel, this naturally happening is nothing but simple. When things happen naturally, they are simple or appear simple to us. When they are not happening naturally, they are complex or appear complex to us. Of course, we have to put our sincere best efforts to make something happen. Not that, sit at a place and expect for things to happen(cant say though, you never know). So finally, for me it seems like i have broken the code of complexity which was bothering us for a looong time. As usual, nobody reads or comments, but comments are always welcome :)

sify, mumbai

I got 10 minutes to write something. What to write, i dunno. Okay, how abt you? Me cool. Great work in some 4 hrs yest. My baby looks pretty now :) Oh! so you asking who my baby is? Ummm.... wait for some time, please. I will let you know. Definitely. OMG 5 minutes passed in just thinking. BTW, why are we here? I have been thinking on this from yest... will update as i get some answers from others, and mine too!! Oops! Only 1 minute. Got to logout, this sify does not give any spare time :( bye...


Saturday, February 03, 2007

snapshot of a couple of days

Was stuck in a bug for a couple of days. Also dint feel like writing. Had many thoughts to write, but just could not make it. Lemme think on it.....

(thinking...1 minute passed)

Ok. I am the most irritating person on this earth for someone very much dear to me. Now that is a compliment. Yes, often any criticism from your loved ones are taken as compliments. When stones can be taken as flowers, verbal criticism is far more acceptable. Okay. Jokes apart. I mean i ws indeed told like that on phone..

You know something? You are the most irritating person i've ever met on this earth in my life!

To be frank, there is no go from it. If a perosn has a certain thought in the mind, "it is there". You cant bump the person's mind and try to manipulate it. Yesterday morning while taking bath i came up with this analysis.

People, relation, business or anything involving more than one humans continue to exist only because there is certain level of faith/contract in each other. No other person knows the truth. In fact, nobody knows what the truth is. Its just a matter of which reasoning has more importance/influence among the entities at a given instance of time. Its the same as survival of the fittest. Any idea, thought that appeals most of the people at a given moment, tends to prevail for a long time.

Okay. Coming back from my crappy analysis(if you feel), well, i am not unhappy that i was told like that. But i was happy that i was told like that so i can try to be less irritating. But, there is a catch here again. I dont do it intentionally, atleast to someone who is soo dear to me. It just happens. I am a human, and may be thats in my nature. A classic example my uncle gave me is of the mosquito.

A mosquito comes near to you to bite/suck yor blood etc(have sex). You may try hit and kill it, either as you see it coming near to you or, you may think of fooling it by allowing it to first sit, drill its bit in your skin and by the time your neurotransmitters send the ouch! signal to your brain, you know that its deep inside you and you hit it. Now you may succeed or fail. If you succeed, Congrats! If you fail, the mosquito goes away and comes back agian. Now, the fact that, you tried to hit it and it still comes to you is a clear indication of its nature.

We too are mosquitoes sometimes, but dont get killed physically, but mentally, heartily :) I feel, one should learn to accept human nature. Agree, sometimes its too difficult or impossible. But to some extent, one can always try.

Next.... (thinking...15 secs)

Related, i am frequently getting emotional jolts. Got one sometime back via a SMS. Sometimes i feel it so strange that some text displayed by a lifeless gadget, makes such an impact on us. There may be a virus in it. One may send it as a casual talk, or fun or anything. But there is no way of telling in what context it was sent. I usually avoid discussing "hunam issues" on phone/chat or mail. Face to face is the best i guess.

Next.... (thinking...10 secs)

How do i express something which cant be express verbally? I am damn scared :-SS Some time back i tried putting some images from gapingvoid .

Nothing special, i am still the same as i was 24 years ago :)

Oh! one more thing, i am damn selfish!!


Thursday, January 25, 2007

jealous for the first time!

Fuck! She sent me a pic of her with a frrrrriendddd of her. God! I went/(am)going mad!! I never felt it before. I did, whenever i think of some fucking lousy asshole beside her, but this was too much! I could feel my temperature rising high. Its cold here, but still i am feeling hot. My mind went blank! I was not able to type anything. I just stopped chatting! LOL!!! This is strange! Only god knows what actually happens. I just told her, lets stop sharing photos, nothing else hit my mind. Its really strange. I never felt jealous for anybody or anything till today. Never! God help me!!!! Fuck! To tell you, all philosophy i am aware of, seems bullshit! God damn! You are looking at your beloved one, the most beloved one, the most most..... superlative word for love... blah blah.... with fucking someone else! The brain starts cooking stories! Fucking losy creepy and all the superlatives of negative, bad blah blah.... stories. You know, its not like that, but still the mind cooking. ui erwthvth weohcftr we[vr we
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ok... let me get involved in work, only that will cool me down. Fuck, i am scared of seeing snaps now :(


Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Oranges Vs Coconuts

Ummm.... what to say... mobile communications sure to fail. Why? As usual, the syllabus is oranges, the paper is full of coconuts!! I thought of coming out as soon as i saw the paper, but then thought, ookay... let me try at least. Believe me, it was damn coconuts. They say in the syllabus you gotta know the GSM architecture and the IMT 200 etc. What they ask in the paper is all the radio interface. Those fucking lousy assholes ask you do design a cellular network with a given frequency range! lol!! They ask you to write about the complete GSM frame details, the signaling channel etc. Unfortunately, the book i wanted was not available in the market and i had to opt for a different book, though it is one of the books recommended for the course, it is very compact. When information is made compact, it becomes complex to understand it. Let's see, the next attempt, i will try more hard to clear it. Seems that, failure is when even the best of you was not enough ;) Best? Enough? Okay... i wont start philosophy now. BTW, why am i writing this :-\ dunno much.... may be i want to say something else and writing something else. Anyway, at least by that way i am letting out my exam related thoughts. Damn! I indeed want to say something, i am not able to.....  :(  I am tied now.


Monday, January 15, 2007

worst evening i dowanna face again..

Today's evening was the worst i have experienced. It has happened earlier too, but todsy's was something i will be scared of. What to say... i have a strange feeling inside me, a kind of fear that just eats up most of my beautiful moments. The thing is that i cant even tell it to anybody :( Maybe it is very silly but.... what is silly and what is major? who decides?..... :) Tomorrow is my exam, but instead of studying, i am listening to songs here with my cousn and writing this. I am just not able to concentrate to study. So, thought of atleast writing up and then try studying.... dunno. what... lets see.....


Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Entry posted from my client :)

Ok... this is the first entry i am posting from my atom client. Still lot of work to do. Wish good luck to me.

wordpress stores images in two sizes

I was just trying to see what kind of hat Shane is wearing in his profile pic.

This is the image link  :

Just out of curiosity, i modified the url and changed it to :

and it works. You get to see a 128X128 picture. I tried for 256, dint work :(

Summary : Wordpress stores different image sizes for each(as blogger has), or shane has them :)


Thursday, January 04, 2007

from Apache Abdera 0.1.0 to 0.2.0 was bit painful :) wont get everything for free. You got to put some efforts. There is no free food. Earlier i was using Velocity and ROME to create and parse feeds. From the start i had a disliking towards ROME. May be it is a great library, but not for me. Just creating an entry from some inputstream or string requires you to write atleast 3 to 5 clean lines of code. One of the biggest problem with that lib is that it cannot parse standalone Entry documents!! So, how did i parse in my projects until Abdera? Use a velocity template which is a skeleton atom feed with no entries in it. Put the entry(got from inputstream or string) to the template and render it. Then take the rendered output which is now a Feed and give it to ROME, then extract the entry located at 0. OMG!!! It was so painful. Other pain comes when you have to send only the entry. No way to create only Entry docs. What to do? Create a  simple class to hold the entry contents, title, author id etc. Use a velocity template, put the entry data in the object and that object in context to render. Take the rendered output and send it. Again at the server, the reverse cycle starts. I used to cry literally....

Ah...Now with Apache was a breeze serializing entries, feeds, service docs etc. I am much more relieved now. As soon as i got to know about Abdera, i started using it. Its fun using Abdera. Oookay, am i exaggerating it too much. Ofcourse, i will!! coz Abdera deserves it! Now with 0.2.0 release, its much more easier. Thanks Abdera :)

PS: ROME = ROME v 0.8. I am not aware about the latest release.


Monday, January 01, 2007

One more year passes by....

Usually people are happy and more of enthusiasm, hopes etc etc... and many more positive feelings, thoughts for a new year. I am not much different than those, but the first thing that hits my mind is, what did i achieve in the last year? Oookay, i cleared some loan, we shifted to a new house, made good friends, experienced life in a different way. Most of all, my belief in things happening on their own just like that has become more an more strong, let it be for any matter, work or personal life, in general.

At this moment while i am writing this, i am not much happy. One of my bosses who are more friends to me keeps on telling me " you have to make your identity/presence re....". May be that bug has caught me. Identity. But again, identity is a relative term. I am quite well known in my circle but thats not what my boss insists on. He insists on making a global presence, lol!! Its not something impossible but requires extremely focussed mind and the zeal to make it happen. One more reason for not being happy is very funny. I am too much sensitive, so i feel " oh my god, 2006 is gone! It wont come again in my life, nobody can get it back to me, i have lost it!! Nooooo.....". This feeling of losing is making me more sad i guess. Control come in to picture here. Boss had said once, losing something is losing the control over the object and not the object per se. Ok, coming back to what i did and what not, i hope this year i do something. And hope not to end up writing second version of this post for the next year. I will try hard to count on every second of this year and make the most out of it. Oh come on, i am a normal person ok with hopes and all that i said in the first line ;) Ok, mom is going to her office now, i need to go down with her, thats my usual routine. Say her bye, tell her not to take tension, not to worry and go slowly. Ok .. see you then... she went down ..byr..